Living in worry or fear can start to seem so normal we don’t even notice it.
It infuses everything we do, especially how we care for ourselves and our family.
Did I make the right choice for breakfast? Is that dairy going to cause eczema?
Did my baby eat enough? Did my toddler? Why am I so hungry? What’s that funny bump? Is it a bug bite or a symptom of a terrible disease?
Was that last meal organic? Oh maybe I shouldn’t have bought the cheap bread, or maybe we should really be cutting out gluten all together?
Even which shampoo to buy becomes a cause for concern. I really like my salon shampoo but that’s toxic right?
I guess I’ll for the natural kind. Greasy hair shouldn’t bother me. That’s just vain.
I mean it’s exhausting. How much easier is life when you can just rock the drive through from time to time.
Or have a hotdog and actually enjoy it, without some internal battle (not to mention the battle with your kids about eating...
Going going going.
From morning till night. Busy.
Trying to keep it all going. Trying to keep all of the balls in the air! Keep everybody happy.
Mom-ing. It’s stressful. To say the least.
Stress. You know, that tight feeling in your chest. Like you can’t get a breath.
That knot in your stomach. Or a little queasiness.
Tension in your shoulders, your jaw, your forehead.
Spend a little while like this and you start to feel like a raw nerve.
Just hanging out there, exposed.
And so you enter defensive mode. You armor up, keep a constant look out for danger.
Until some part of you screams ‘This is no way to live!’.
Because you don’t have access to the joy.
The ease, the fun, the light, the love.
And that IS no way to live.
And you don’t have to. You don’t have to live in defensive mode. In stress. In tension. Worry. Fear. Closed off.
You can open to receive.
By living in such a way that you create a profound sense of safety for yourself.